Afraid

Haven't blogged in awhile so gonna combine two topics into one :)

"I am afraid right now
Don't want to let you down
And I'm the only one who can't be saved"

"And I wonder if I ever cross your mind...
For me it happens all the time"

Being a afraid, another word for fear is just a natural evil. I often wonder and wish I wasn't so afraid of the future and could think more in the present. I'm trying my best to do that recently, or at least to think about the present and the very near future (1-2 weeks from now).

Anyways often I get relapses of my past, but it's been awhile since I've over thought things to this caliber. As I said before, relationships never really die out when they're gone, you always have a certain special bond/connection with the person if it ends well. Yet why I am so afraid just to dial the number just talk one on one for guidance? I mean I eventually did and it was a great choice, but why be that afraid and second guess yourself. Talking to your friends about problems in life is an awesome choice, but sometimes you just want more, you want to talk to that someone that you think can understand you more.

Going into the next part, ever wonder if the other side of the relationship ever thinks of you as much as you do about them? Though I guess it's not a bad thing to wonder about; I mean what if they don't then you're kinda screwed, so maybe better off not finding out haha.

Anywho summing it up, sometimes a best friend, or a regular friendship isn't enough, you want someone who can understand exactly *THAT* well.

Lyrics above are:
Yellowcard: Afraid
Lady Antebellum: Need You Now