Caught off guard, all worked up, waiting for a miracle

Caught off guard, all worked up
the air is as dark and cold as night
Let me go, I'm not done
I swear I'll take just one lifetime

I'm not going, cause I've been waiting for a miracle and I'm not leaving.

Lyrics from, "Letters to God" by Box Car Racer and "Miracle" by Paramore.

Simple as those lyrics. It's come to a fact that life really isn't fair. I'm not saying that I'm going through the worst in the world, because there are WAY more in the world in a worse condition than I am. Hard work pays off in life, but even as hard as you try, it might come down to nothing. Sometimes maybe you just have to accept your limits of the world, and accept maybe "this is who you are". As much as you may want something, sometimes the fact is, life won't let you have it. Sure there are those miracle stories we always hear about, but that is like 1 person out of millions.
People say make sure you have a backup plan, problem is back up plans always have flaws, it's never complete, and it's never as good as what you originally intended or wanted.
I'm not giving up on my goals yet, because I have not done that ONCE in my life time right now. But I am saying that if I don't succeed, then I might as well live an unaccomplished life. Because obviously life does not want me to be completely happy again.
As for the last line in "Letters to God" One life time might honestly be enough, especially if it goes through this much crap the second time. Though if a second life time might be any slightly better, I'd reconsider it.